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On a lukewarm afternoon, we were sitting successful Phuphee’s room toasting makkai (corn) to make soatt (ground corn). Phuphee would marque ample batches of makkai saott around precocious August erstwhile the past of the maize is harvested. We were chatting, erstwhile idiosyncratic ran successful shouting. It was a woman from the colony and she begged Phuphee to travel consecutive distant arsenic someone’s noashe (daughter-in-law) had been possessed by a jinn.
Phuphee grabbed her keep (top portion of the Kashmiri burqa) and the 3 of america ran into the colony wherever everyone was gathered astir Dar Sahab’s house. Even from a region we could spot the youngest daughter-in-law looking wild, her hairsbreadth flying astir her. She kept screaming astatine her mother-in-law who looked visibly scared.
As soon arsenic the mother-in-law saw Phuphee, she started weeping and asking her to cure the miss of the jinn. The daughter-in-law, whose sanction was Shama, continued screaming, repeating the aforesaid happening implicit and implicit again: ‘Baeti ches insaan [I americium besides human].’
Phuphee went implicit to Shama and held her hands successful her ain until she started to calm down. Phuphee past took disconnected her keep and wrapped it astir Shama and led her into the house. She asked the mother-in-law to marque a cupful of nun chai with a dollop of ghee. From her pocket, she handed her a tiny packet with makkai soatt and instructed her to enactment it successful the tea. Phuphee and Shama went upstairs and an hr later, Phuphee emerged connected her own.
‘She is sleeping now. Do not disturb her. Let her rest,’ Phuphee instructed them.
She took the mother-in-law into the kitchen. Ten minutes aboriginal she came out, and we left. As we walked backmost home, I asked Phuphee what had happened to Shama.
She motioned for america to beryllium nether a chinar tree. She took a mates of cigarettes from her pheran pocket and lit them. After she had smoked for a mates of minutes, she said, ‘Shama has a precise superior illness. She has to person attraction for a agelong time. The attraction is agelong and difficult, and the cure isn’t guaranteed. She is incapable to bash thing astatine location now. She cannot look aft the location oregon the children oregon adjacent herself for that matter.’
Phuphee went quiescent and smoked her cigarettes. It seemed similar she was trying to lick thing successful her mind. When she had finished, we got up and went home. Once she got back, she asked 1 of the helpers to bring us nun chai and soatt. I asked her if she had fixed the mother-in-law a taaveez for Shama. She smiled arsenic she mixed spoonfuls of soatt into the nun chai for me.
‘When I premix the soatt with the tea, it seems to disappear, but it is inactive there. It is the aforesaid with words,’ she said.
Phuphee explained that Shama’s mother-in-law had 2 sons. Both were married. Shama was the eldest daughter-in-law. When the younger lad got married, his woman had go precise unwell for a fig of years. Though she had recovered and lived a mean life, she was perpetually reminded of the clip erstwhile she had been riddled with illnesses. Now, Shama had go unwell. And it had transpired that the mother-in-law went astir telling everyone astir however ‘goednyeth aes laktyis sakhti, waen che baedyis [first the youngest lad had a hard beingness and present the eldest]’.
Someone successful the colony had relayed this accusation to Shama. Upon proceeding these words, Shama had felt a occurrence instrumentality clasp of her heart. What had peculiarly angered her was that her mother-in-law had made nary comments astir however atrocious it was for Shama to beryllium successful this situation. Shama had asked Phuphee, ‘Why erstwhile I americium the 1 who is ill, is my discomfort secondary to everyone else’s? How has it go astir the discomfort of others?’
‘What did you say?’ I asked Phuphee.
‘I said nothing. Shama already knows the answers,’ Phuphee replied.
I sat determination wondering what she already knew.
‘But did you springiness them a taaveez?’ I asked impatiently.
Phuphee sighed.
‘Yes I did, but it was not for Shama. I told her the jinn had not possessed Shama. It had possessed her [mother-in-law] and the lone mode to termination it was done abstinence of speech. She indispensable bounds what she says to the implicit minimum and she indispensable ne'er talk much than 2 words successful beforehand of Shama due to the fact that that would particularly fortify the jinn,’ Phuphee said.
She past got up, gave maine a buss connected my forehead, and said, ‘Never, hide this. There is simply a peculiar spot successful hellhole for women who deprive different women of their autonomy. Men marque the shackles, but it is often different women who propulsion distant the key.’ And she walked retired to grind the remainder of the corn.
I sat there, overwhelmed. Many years later, I understood wherefore she had unopen the mother-in-law’s mouth. It was an enactment that seemed insignificant, but it gave Shama a small space. In a satellite designed by men and propagated by galore women, a satellite wherever women person nary ownership implicit anything, not adjacent their symptom oregon discomfort successful illness, Phuphee had managed to assistance the mother-in-law’s ft disconnected Shama’s cervix agelong capable for her to breathe.
Saba Mahjoor, a Kashmiri surviving successful England, spends her scant escaped clip contemplating life’s vagaries.
